When I was young my mom gave me a ukulele for Christmas (or was it my birthday?) I loved it. It had a rainbow on it and said Hawaii (which was my dream vacation for so so so long!)
I finally made it to Hawaii this last summer, and my ukulele finally bit the dust after being abused by several children.
So I bought a new one when it was on sale on Amazon. It was fairly inexpensive and I took the risk. It's decent quality and certainly works well enough to fill some time during this Coronavirus quarantine.
I've enjoyed plucking at it and relearning a few chords in order to play a few songs.
I must've hit a new stage of this quarantine because last night I started thinking about some of my life goals and how I could (should) be using some of this time to get a little closer to them.
Don't get my wrong, I'm still pulling my hair out, crying every day, and barely surviving monitoring homeschool.
I read a blog written by a friend of mine who IS a public speaker. It was about using this time we've been given to better ourselves and work on our goals.
I blew it off with a chuckle thinking that's for the people who actually have free time.
But we're figuring it out. And like I said, maybe I've turned a corner.
So I was grateful for her words.
Some of my life goals include graduating from USM with my Master's degree in Child and Family Studies, being a great Mom, earning money for my writing, teaching online for BYU-IDAHO, being a great Mom, speaking at events or teaching parenting classes, become a student of the scriptures, write a book, being a great Mom.
Yes, I know I put that one three times. It's the most important one.
It's also the hardest.
This week to get closer to accomplishing my goal of getting my Master's degree, I had a conference call with my advisor and made the jump to speed up the process. Starting this fall I'll do double time what I've been doing, and I'll graduate in summer 2021 instead of Summer 2022!
I'm excited about that move. It's still manageable- 6 credits per semester.
I also decided recently that since I love teaching, and one of the best ways to learn something is to teach it, and I also want to be a public speaker, and work on my writing- I'm going to pick a topic every so often and study it. Then I'll write a talk and record it to share with others. It'll give me practice learning the scriptures, writing and speaking.
Now, for the most important one- being a great Mom. That one is more of a step by step type of goal. Two steps forward, one step back. I can only pray and hope that at the end of each day I'm still moving forward.
Right now I'm focusing on not getting upset and overwhelmed when they ask if they can play on the Kindle. It's a step forward.
I'd love to hear some of your goals!
It's kind of like we are going through a mourning process for our old life. At first I was stunned, then sad, then angry, now starting to accept it for what it is. Great writing!
ReplyDeleteYes! And I even started typing that up, but I don't really know the mourning process fully, so I skipped that part. But yes!
DeleteTeresa, I didn’t think of this situation and the mourning process, but it totally makes sense! My emotions are all over the place. I think I am still in the anger phase, I have quite hit the acceptance but I will try to get there.
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Yes! Mine too! haha. It's different every day.
DeleteThis too shall pass, they say. But day by day you can make the choice to be happy alpng this journey we call life. Proud of you!
ReplyDeleteI love your goals! Being a great mom is on my list, too, and I have to come back to it again and again, but someday you ( and I) when our kids have kids and they are raising them as we raised our kids, we will realize we succedded. Sometimes I wonder if I am doing enough or too much or wonder why I was blessed with these angels because surely there is someone who would do a better job than me, but then I brush the negative thoughts aside and just be grateful. Grateful to have them, grateful Heavenly Father doesn't expect me to be perfect, and grateful for the Savior who redeemed my sins, so when I do mess up motherhood, I can take a step back and start again. I wasn't planning to write all that, but there you have it! 😊
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you did write it all! You're exactly right- those negative thoughts creep in. But you are such a great Mom, and I look to your mothering example a lot!! Love you!
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